Fall Darkness

 Missing my old reality 

where did you go?

a sorrow you would never know...

vanished in thin air

kindness could never compare 

I hope the afterlife is wonderful

full of things that we can only dream about

Nicole Bright


I am missing Lysa immensely.  The fall air brings up her memory and I cry a ton about my cats still.  I am not sure why the fall changing colors and getting colder brings that up.   I just want her back really badly   I want my animals I miss them so much it hurts physically   My whole world turned upside down.   After Lysa died losing them all I got so depressed I stopped trying so hard in physical therapy Then I lost the apartment.   Worst year of my life really   

Trying a new anxiety book its pretty good and I'm teaching Cindy too.   



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